Waiting...Always Waiting

Hello Everyone, and firstly, thank you so much to all of those who reached out and were kind enough to come back and read my last post. It's absolutely wonderful to know, you're all still there and I certainly don't take it for granted.

So, what am I talking about today? Well, as the title suggests, life at chez Turner has been all about waiting..for electricians, plumbers and most importantly, news. Unfortunately, here in the UK, there are times when our postal service is not the best and this is never more obvious than when you're waiting for a specific letter. Of course, there were the Easter holidays and so it's fair to assume, there is a degree of backlog, but this has been going on for some months now and, for someone with limited patience, the wait is excruciating. Now, I won't even try to excuse my impatience, it's a trait I have tried to work on over the years, and I freely admit, not with a great deal of success. But, when every day is spent staring blankly out of the window, hoping to glimpse the familiar red uniform of a postal worker who never comes, it can be difficult to say the least! It wouldn't be so bad if it was just the letter, but I am also waiting on a couple of emails, which despite the endless refreshing of the page, have still not appeared - ARGH!

Oh, and I'm acutely aware, my tiny problems are absolutely nothing compared to what is still going on in the wider world. Ceasefires that barely seem to last longer than the time it takes to say the word 'ceasefire' and the horrific consequences on those people who are the victims of blatant warmongers. Regardless of any political or religious affiliation, to have the US President openly talking about 'destroying entire civilisations' is dangerous for the world as a whole and we all need to take note and be mindful of the catastrophic effects such fundamentally stupid and inflammatory remarks can cause. Can we even imagine the horror of those who spend every waking moment waiting for the next bomb to drop? Waiting to see if there is still fresh water or food for our families? Undeniably a nightmarish way to live and I would hope we are all impatient for this madness to end. Sadly, it is in the hands of people who don't seem to be in any real rush to find a resolution, but we must keep hoping someone sees sense.

But, for now, back to the subject of waiting, the problem I have is finding it almost impossible to settle down and do anything else! As an example, this morning, an engineer was due to come, and there are countless tasks that I could have been doing but I was chronically unable to focus on even the simplest household job, as all my attention was focused on waiting for the doorbell to ring. I'm almost embarrassed to admit just how much time I wasted. Despite everything, I still almost jumped out of my skin when he finally appeared! I wish I could offer some explanation for my reaction, but I really don't have one.

As for the letter and emails I mentioned earlier, these are potentially life-changing and if even one of them brings positive news, it could turn an ordinary day and turn it into something amazing. I genuinely believe most people deserve a few extraordinary moments in their life, things that were only ever thought to be dreams but suddenly become realities. It's this kind of moment I am waiting for now, my friends, and it's not dependent on any kind of divine intervention- no, this will be decided on the opinion of someone I might never meet. I know that sounds very mysterious and I would tell you more but the fear of somehow jinxing the possible result, is far greater than anything else. If it happens, you will be the first to know- I promise!

So, that's how life is here, a whole mess of waiting for things that are way out of my control, but thankfully, I did manage to get it together enough to write to you this morning. I sincerely hope if you are in a similar situation, the time passes quickly and when the news does arrive, it enhances your life more than you had imagined.

Please look after yourselves, these are difficult times for so many reasons but if we all stick together, we will come out the other side and find there is light after all....until the next time...

Take very good care xx